Oct 10, 2012- "It's not over until I say it is" said Alex

Well today was long, my sister's fish that she got at the fir we went to died. I felt like complete shit all day long, first of all I felt so sick, second of all I had the Alex shit to think about, and to top it off my mom was cause more drama about my father, trying to make me hurt him. But the thing is I can't help her, I am done with my Scott (my father). He hurt a lot of people, like when he cheated on my mother, and when he treated my sister like dirt, but I never hated him for any of that, none of that ever meant anything to me. I have my own personal reasons for not talking to him. Last year when things were going really bad with my mom at home (like usual), Scott had promised I could live with him. I was supposed to move in with him on February 28th. That whole month of February I got shit from my mom every single day about my decision, but on the other side, I would get all theses texts from my dad, showing me our new place, and asking me which room I would want and all this stuff. Three days before the 28th, my dad stopped answering his phone. The 28th rolled around and I waited at my house all day with all my stuff packed and ready to go...but he never came for me. Turns out he had backed out, and the worst part of all is he didn't even have the balls to call me and tell me. But I held myself together, I didn't shed a single tear, I just knew things could never be the same for me and my dad again. His excuse was he felt bad because he didn't know how it would effect Bella, but thats bullshit, thats just something he tells himself so he doesn't have trouble sleeping at night. After that I wanted nothing to do with him... He still calls and texts me all the time, but I never ever answer, because in the end of the day he is the one who lost out, not me. Also, apparently Alex looked at my blog last night...thats awkward. The worst part is I don't even remember jack shit from yesterday because I took some Xanax. Also, apparently Alex convinced his dad to let him see me on weekends, but he wont tell me how. But that really means a lot to me that I meant enough to Alex that he would fight for me. I refuse to let his dad's girlfriend win, I swear if I ever see her again that bitch is going to be sorry, obviously I can't like beat the crap out of her or anything, even though I'd like too haha, but I will make her feel like shit. Hahaha trust me, that is my specialty (;