Oct 3, 2012- The later it gets, the stupider I get

So you know how everything was actually fine for once...well me being me had to go fuck it up... Everyone knows I say stupid things at 1am, yet I still decided to video chat with Alex against my better judgement...Stupid me ended up giving him the address to my blog..and he ended up reading the shit I wrote about Agustin... Yet after reading it he still came back with, "I love you, but you've got some explaining to do." Ughhhh sometimes I swear i need to start using my head... And I really need to not be so open with Alex... Because I don't like him knowing just how much I really love him, because I don't want him to take advantage of that... The weird thing is I was talking to his friend Vienna all day giving her advice, but if I could actually take some of my own advice once in a while, I would be in control... Yet for some reason I had to go fall in love with Alex and loose all control, ever since then it has been one stupid decision after another, but I can't help the way I feel about Alex...I don't think Alex has enough of an attention span to go back and read the rest of my blog, in fact I legit pray he doesn't, because I don't know how to delete this stupid thing...and if he sees all the stuff I wrote including the Stacey thing, I am honestly going to shit out a fucking elephant... AND YES I AM DEAD SERIOUS! ugh well I'm super tired, and my computer is going to die in like 5 seconds anyway...so goodnight... and pray for me that he doesn't read the rest...because that my friend would just be a big bowl of awksauce....