Oct 22, 2012- A new beginning

     Well I finally realized that using the fact that Alex reads my blog to manipulate his feelings and actions basically makes me just as bad as Jesse (my psycho ex).  Also I want starting be become cautious of my writing, because I knew Alex was going to read it at some point.  So I decided to change my web address and make it look as if I deleted it.  The only thing is, that right before this happened, my boyfriend Alex asked me to delete the post about his father, so I feel like he is going to think I "deleted" my blog because of him.  At the moment I'm tying this as I walk to Jiu Jitsu, that class I despise, because it forces me to get off the couch.  haha reading that you probably think I'm some fat fuck who lives on the couch.  But the truth is, I'm just the opposite.  Haha I'm 5'1 and 95 pounds.  Yes, I know I'm short.  But thankfully I don't look short.  Haha like I don't have the body of a short person, I look tall unless you're actually close enough to judge my height based on comparison.  Well...Besides me being a tall short person,  I've been doing some thinking and have decided to stop dreaming and start doing.  Starting with the fact that I want to go to Paris this summer, and if I stop spending all my money on stupid shit...For example, yesterday I managed to spend $80 at the movies, and I didn't even pay for the tickets.  So if I stop doing things like that, I will be able to go!