Oct 9, 2012- The worst kind of pain

I swear to god, its as if I can legitimately feel my heart breaking inside of me. I have been crying so hard since Alex left I can barely catch my breath, I feel like I'm loosing him, and it hurts so much because there is absolutely nothing I can do, I am completely powerless... His dad came over with his awful witch of a girlfriend and se convinced his dad that me and Alex need to break up. His dad doesn't believe in Alex at all, he can't even see what a wonderful son he has, and it is so sad that he thinks so low of Alex. If he just took 5 minutes and actually got to know his own kid, maybe he would see what a truly amazing person Alex is, but he doesn't. That man is just as awful as his girlfriend, he only difference is he is easily swayed. If the girlfriend hadn't have come, my mom could have convinced Alex's dad otherwise. But that was the thing, this was real life, "what ifs' didn't matter, what mattered was, the girlfriend DID come, and she said that Alex will break up with me, and the will be no contact, that included Facebook, texting, phone calls, and seeing each other. I swear it feels like someone just ripped out my heart and stepped on it, the only difference is in a way emotion pain is so much worse then physical pain. Alex has to go before the conversation was even finished, because of his curfew... but if his asshole of a father hadn't taken 3 hours to get there, then maybe there would have been more time, for me so say something, anything to convince him otherwise. I held it together through out the entire conversation, but the second everyone got up I ran into my room and completely lost it, Alex ran in after me to get his coat, he just held me in his arms telling me that he loved me so much and was so sorry but he really had to leave.