Oct 6, 2012- The other woman (Mary Jane)

Well today I got Alex a haircut because he really needed one...I was super happy to wake up in his arms, because I swear there isn't a better feeling in the world then that. After his haircut he came over my house to help my mom put up halloween decorations, because the crazy old bitch said I had to, so he volunteered to help. After he told me he was really sorry but he could take me on a date after work, because of his curfew, and he couldn't risk it. I had work at 5 and when I got there my boss's kept coming up to me, and saying "Wow, I thought you were smart." at first I didn't know what they were talking about, but then they explained that they thought I was stupid for dating Alex because he smokes. They kept saying that the whole time, and had this whole big thing to say about me and Alex kissing earlier in front of the place. It was awful and I was so preoccupied that I ended up spilling two things. I thought my boss was going to fire me on the spot, but he didn't. Some guy was hitting on me, and my boss wanted me to give him a chance and ditch Alex, but I said no, even though the guy was super hot, maybe even hotter then Alex. After I got home from my awful day at work I called Alex, but he wasn't at "his house" in Brookline, he was with his friend at his house in Brighton, which meant he was breaking his curfew, which mean't he could have kept out date! Ugh, I swear I'm never getting my hopes up again about Alex taking me on a date, because I now know that it will never ever ever ever happen, unless they start handing out week instead of popcorn at the theater. It was funny too, because today Alex was realizing how good all the other guys I'd ever dated treated me, and how much they did for me, and he was saying he felt bad that he could do the same. But the truth was he could, he just choose not to. Even my friends constantly ask me why I'm with Alex, when there are so many guys that would love to take me on dates, and have a chance with me, and they would all have so much more to offer...But I don't know I guess I just love Alex... But honestly I just wish once in a while he would think of me, and instead of spending $20 on Mary Jane, ask me to go get some ice cream or something...ANYTHING. But I already know that I will always have to compete with Mary Jane, because even though he will never admit it, Mary is way more important to him then me.