Oct 2, 2012- A trip to Alex's world

I ended up going to Alex's school to see him, and my mom ended up turning my phone back on, but just for today, because I needed it to get in touch with people. I spend an hour getting ready, and when I left my house I looked freaking amazing. I was super nervous, because I don't like being out of my element, unless I'm with a friend. But I wasn't, I was alone, as plus I knew that some of the girls that went there that were friends with Alex didn't like me, Like Vickii, who started off being my friend, until I introduced her to Alex. and Hannah, who I had met through Vickii. But I hated Hannah as well, because I knew that she was a whore, and she had these huge boobs, like I'm not even exaggerating when I say these things looked like they could scare a small child, or maybe even a full grown one. But one thing I am very good at is faking confidence, even when I have none... How do you think I survived Alex's birthday dinner? So anyway, i put on my mask and started walking, pretending to be talking on the phone, when all of a sudden Alex jumped up behind me and grabbed me, I screamed. He was with his short cute black friend... Alex told me his name like 5 times but I don't remember. So the three of us hung out for a little bit because we had to go get something before Alex took me to Will's house. Before we got to Will's house Alex warned me that will might try ti tell me some stuff but not to believe him, because Will like to start shit for no reason. But that just made me curious, to see what Will had to say, so I spend the whole time at Will's house trying to get Will alone, so I could ask him. But it wasn't easy, and it's not like it was the most comfy situation, because it was me, alone in a house with 6 guys, there only thing that made me feel okay, was knowing I had Alex there. Because the one thing Alex would never do is leave me alone. Finally Alex went outside to smoke, and I asked Will why Alex would say that...Will thought about this for a little, then told me Alex had been cheating on me with a bunch of people. I immediately got up, grabbed my jacket and my pocketbook and walked out of Will's house and started walking back the way I came. When I walked past Alex, Alex started called my name, asking where I was going, but I didn't answer. I just continued to walk away as fast as I could. Alex started running after me, and would let me leave until I let him explain himself, in a way I was kind of shocked that he came after me, but it made me a little relieved that he cared enough to fight for this relationship. He explained to me that Will never gets any girls and that that's why he tries to wreak everyone else's relationships. But at the moment that wasn't good enough for me, I wanted to believe him so badly, but on the other hand I didn't want to be the idiot who kept getting cheat on, but couldn't see it because she was blinded by love. I know that happens, because I've seen it happen, me and Agustin used to fool around, and he'd talk crap about his girlfriend Sid, and in the end of the day he would go back to her and be like "Baby I don't know what you're talking about, I love you I would never cheat on you!" And she would fall for it, because she loved him, and I later me and Agustin would sit back and laugh at how nieve she was. And yes I know now that that is horrible, and I wish I could take it back...but I can't so I just have to live with my mistakes...But anyway back to my story ahahaha. So Alex kept saying he could call a bunch of people and get them to tell me that Will was lying and that he does shit like this all the time. But I didn't care what anyone else had to say, so I told Alex that if it really wasn't true then he would go confront Will, so that is exactly what Alex did. He brought me back to Will's house and brought Will on the porch and confronted Will, but Will stuck to his story. So Alex dragged this random asian dude who was standing there, and according to the asian dude, he sees Alex everyday and he doesn't cheat, and Will has done shit like this in the past. At that point nothing anyone said was going to change how I felt, I just wanted to get out of there, and go home so I could cry my eyes out, and then get over it. So I again started walking away. As I started walking down the stairs, some black guy tried to stop me by blocking me from leaving, but I pushed him back and continued down the stairs. Again Alex came after me, and I told him that if he is at all human, he will have the decency to tell me the truth. He insisted that he honestly didn't do anything besides the thing I already knew about. Finally I gave in and huggest him, because at the end of the day I truly love that boy more then I can even put into words. I really hope that he isn't cheating on me because that would honestly kill me. But I trust him. After all that, me and Alex we going to grab some food, but we ran into Vickii, she was in his friend Vienna's car. They offered to give us a ride, to the center to we could get food, but instead we all ended up going to the mall near my house. I had the best time, and turns out I like Vickii, and Vienna is So freaking nice! I had the best time, but at the end I hated saying goodbye to Alex. It always feels like our time flies by so quickly... sometimes I swear I wish I could just be with him forever, and never have to leave his side. Ugh well hope I get to see him before friday, but that is highly unlikely... but either way at least this weekend is a long weekend so I will get to spend more time with him. And on tuesday I don't have school and he does, so I am planning on stopping bye again! Also me and Agustin made a plan to hang out this friday at his house at 12pm, and be "secret friends"...but I know that is a bad idea, because even though Agustin has changed so much, every time I look into his big green eyes, I see everything we used to be, and I can't help that I still have a little bit of feelings for him, and I probably always will...But Alex is the guy I love and I honestly wouldn't want to be in a relationship with anyone else...well I'm super tired, so I'm going to bed...GOODNIGHT(: