Sometimes I get so angry with Alex, I forget to see all the good things he is/ does. I am so frustrated by the half of Alex that I hate, I forget to acknowledge the half of him that I love. When I feel like this I ignore the fact that he walks 3.6 miles to see me, the way he always makes sure I'm warm and bundles me up and holds me close when I'm not. I forget about when we were in Maine and Alex scooped me up out of the freezing water and towel dried me off because he didn't want me to get pneumonia, and how he played with my hair even thought I was asleep the entire car ride back. But the truth is even though sometimes I hate him so much, and wish so badly I could just walk away, I don't think I ever could. Because even though I get so upset sometimes, when I am actually with him, in his arms, I swear there is no place in the entire world I would rather be than with him.
Well besides all that, today I truly didn't feel like being in school, so I went to the nurse at around 10 am and told her I didn't feel well. When she asked to talk to my mom I called Vienna and she pretended to be my mom and gave permission for me to be dismissed. After leaving school I went home changed, and spend the day at vienna's house. After that I saw Alex and I realized I don't want to leave him.
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