Nov 24, 2012- Just don't like vacations...

     At this point I can't wait to go home from New Hampshire.  I have been here since friday, with Alex and my mom and sister.  There is also my mom's friend Debbie and her son Barry, and his other two siblings.  Today we were all forced to go to santa's village where I swear I thought I was going to freeze to death.  I was so cold and I was mad at my mom for making me go, so I asked her if I could wait in the car, and she said no.  I told her its not fair because I didn't even want to go in the first place. After saying that, my mom's friend Debbie was like, "Ari that is enough." So I responded with, "I'm sorry but you're not my mother, therefore you can't tell me what to do or say." after that she told me to apologize and I said, "Once again you're not my mother.  My mother is standing two feet away, and if she would like me to apologize she'll tell me, but so far she hasn't said anything."  I'm pretty sure it was because my mom was in shock from what I had just said, but I am the type of person who does not back down to anyone.  Also before I went on this stupid vacation I made the mistake of giving Alex all my extremely hard earned money.  My mom said he needed $100, but I know he doesn't have that much money, so I gave him my money that I have been saving.  As I right this he is in the game arcade blowing my money.  Gosh, I just feel so stupid, because I feel like I never do anything for myself because I am always trying to please Alex, and it bothers me, because he acts all high and mighty, and doesn't let me touch any money, because he thinks it's his now.  I just for once he could reciprocate, but Alex isn't the type.  I am not talking to him, because after two days without smoking, I took my eyes off him for two seconds and he goes out and smokes.  To be honest I'm not even angry about that, I'm angry because I basically paid $100, to have a sucky vacation, and have Alex spend the whole vacation with my cousin.  Ugh...I swear I learn over and over again that one, no good deed ever goes unpunished.  Also, when money is borrowed or shared in a relationship, wether it be a friendship, or a romantic relationship, things always get complicated.   I just don't know what to do, because what am I supposed to say, 'hey babe, can you get a job so I don't have to support your broke ass?'...or maybe..."Alex I love you but I need you to go find some money because I want the money I have you back.'...There really is nothing I can say without sounding like an insensitive bitch, but I just don't think it is fair that I pay for Alex to have a great vacation with my family while I am stuck sitting in a hotel room alone with my mother.  I just i just don't like vacations, because every time I go on one, I end up miserable, and Alex keeps asking me to talk to him, but there is nothing I can say....ANY ADVICE? PLEASE WORLD, HELP ME FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO WITH THIS SITUATION!  "I love you so much more when you're not here, watching all the bad shows drinking all of my beer." -Pink<3