Nov 18, 2012- Yes I'm still alive

     I know I haven't blogged in a long time, but to be honest I just haven't felt like blogging lately.  Thursday I went to Alex's house and he had dinner ready for me, he told me his dad has told him why he doesn't like me.  He said that his dad said that I was low class because of the house I lived in.  I was completely floored, because my mom owns a house with three floors, and Alex's dad rents a one bedroom apartment and he freaking thinks that I am low class! That night me and Alex also ended up fighting because Alex tried to have sex with me and I said, "I've got an idea, since you don't love me, but just love having sex with me, you should find someone else who is just as good in bed and higher class then me, so you and your dad will be happy."...After that Alex completely lost it on my, and put me on the couch and started screaming in my face, "If you fucking think I walk 3.6 miles, cook you dinner, think about you all day, text you every morning just to tell you I love you, just to get in your pants, then get the fuck out of my house, because that is just disrespectful to me!"  At that point I felt so bad I thought I was going to cry, but I held it together.  We ended up making up but I still felt bad about saying that.  Then friday night was the first night my mom has gone out in a long time, so me and my friend Maddy decided to get drunk and have Alex over.  We got drunk but I dont know what was wrong with Maddy she was acting like she had lost it...I never want to be drunk with her again.  The worst part was I felt like I was babysitting because she kept trying to drink more, and yelling at me, and she was throwing up the entire night, and made me stay awake with her.  After that I realized I can only tolerate Maddy in small doses.  I also ended up crying that night, because Alex basically admitted that he'll never love me as much as he loved his ex.  Saturday nothing interesting happened except the fact that I worked. And today I spend the day with Alex.  My ex Jon texted my today asking me for a sexy picture, so I said sure and asked him what he wanted.  He responded back saying he wanted me with no pants on.  So i asked Alex if I could take a picture of his penis and told him why.  I made Alex put on one of my skirts and had that hanging out.  We send it to Jon and Jon practically shit a brick...Then 10 minutes later he texted me back saying "Wait that cant be you, because you're not white!"  I couldn't believe that that was the only reason Jon thought it wasn't me, like honestly, how stupid can one person be....