Nov 21, 2012- Rally it up

Me and the hot guy from Brookline.

     I find it ironic how they keep telling you not to dwell on the past, instead focas on the future, because it seems we compare everything in our future to something in our past, wether it be consciously or subconsciously.  Lately the present is making me miss the past.  At the risk of sounding superficial, christmas is coming, and I'm spending all my money to buy Alex the guy version of the sneakers I've always wanted, but never bought because they were too expensive, but I know he isn't going to do anything for me on christmas.  I miss the days where guys would get me pretty jewelry and diamond earrings and make me feel special for christmas.  I don't know why I can just accept things the way they are, but I can't help missing my past.  I miss going on random dates, picking up random guys, sneaking around, and oddly enough I miss Blue.  Its weird thinking back, but as much as I used to hate guys falling over me, putting me on a pedestal, and treating me like a princess, now that all of that is gone I miss guys like that.  On another note, I did what I said I was going to do, and painted my entire face, neck and some of my chest blue, and when to Brookline High's pep rally, and pretended I go there.  The pep rally itself wasn't so fun, but I had fun seeing all the people I know from brookline, and pretending I go there with the people from brookline that I don't know.  All day everyone kept telling me I looked like a smurf...Then after me and Alex fucked in the girls bathroom at his school, we were so nervous we were gonna get caught, but thankfully we didn't.  I also took a picture with this guy Lijamil who I think is very attractive from brookline, which I posted haha.