Nov 3, 2013- The Green Eyed Monster

     Today I introduced my best friend Catherine to this guy Van.  I've never really chilled with him before so I didn't really know what he was like, all I knew was Catherine was looking desperately for a guy and he is close enough to our age and single.  Van lives like a street over from me, so we met him at the Dunkin Donuts near my house and from there went to harvard square and just hung out.  There is something I have to share and I know it is so wrong and the only reason I'm sharing it on here is because I have to get it out. It's not like I can even tell my friends, because the only two people I'm close two are Catherine and Alex, and neither one of them can ever find out about this.  The truth is I think I literally almost fell in love with Van today, but the problem is Catherine did too.  I completely understand why though because first of all he is honestly one of the best looking guys I have ever met in my entire life, and he was wearing the cutest outfit today, it was this adorable gray jacket, a black hoodie, and jeans...I know nothing special but it looking so freaking adorable!  But anyways, aside from his amazingly good looks, the way he speaks sounds so intelligent, and he knows so much, but he's not just smart he is also funny and nice, and really down to earth.  To top that all off he is a total gentlemen, like he held doors open, offered to buy he stuff and ugh...was just so cute...like I don't understand how the hell he is freaking  single.  Too bad I already introduced him to Catherine, and he already seems to like her.  After we all hung out I texted him and asked him what he thought of her and he was like, "Haha she's super cool. It went a lot better than I expected it to, and it surprised me how cute she was (blind dates don't usually go that way), but what did she think of me?"  Like I am happy for my friend...well at least I want to be happy for her, but I can't help but be secretly jealous.  Also, like Alex hasn't seen me all weekend, and again today he had plans with me but he said he couldn't because of a family thing, and just like before it was really so he could see Eli.  But like the weird part is I totally don't give a fuck, like all I can think about is Van and how to step the fuck back and be happy for my friend.  Gosh that's going to be hard to do, but I got this.