Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Jan 30, 2013- ANY THOUGHTS ON MY ENGLISH ESSAY?!


     Often it seems as though a person cannot change who they are, but this is not true, crises force people to become the person they need to be in the given situation, and that the instinct to survive can override any weakness in character.  In Adam Bagdasarian’s novel Forgotten Fire, the main character Vahan Kenderian starts off as a carefree individual who believes he will always be taken care of.  When crisis strikes, everything Vahan knows gets taken away from him, and he is forced to either take charge and grow up, or be killed.  As the story progresses he begins to show honor, integrity and self-reliance.
     In the beginning of the novel Vahan states,  “I walked with the confidence of a boy who has grown up in luxury, and knows that he will always be comfortable, always be well fed, always be warm in the winter and cool in the summer” (4).  His attitude towards life and thoughts about himself are, “My father was afraid that I lacked character and discipline.  And he was right.  As far as I was concerned, character and discipline were consolation prizes given to the meek, the unadventurous, and the unlucky” (5).  This mindset shows that Vahan is not interested in succeeding on his own, he lacks drive and thinks he can always rely on his father to carry him throughout life. 
      As time progresses without even noticing, Vahan begins to start showing the qualities that he lacked before.  After spending time at Goryan’s Inn, Vahan’s mother tells Vahan that, “I [the mother] cannot watch them kill you” and that she wants Vahan and his brother Sisak to leave in the middle of the night (50).  Even though this is a tough thing for Vahan to do, because his mother’s room is the one place he goes to whenever he feels nervous or unsure, he does it anyway without arguing because he knows that is what has to be done.  Leaving the one person he goes to for security shows Vahan is starting to understand what is going on and what needs to be done.  Later, Mrs. Altoonian tells Vahan that no Armenian is safe in Bitlis.  Vahan agrees, “though I [Vahan] had wanted to believe we were safe” (73).  Even though Vahan knows that he is not safe, there is still part of him that would like to believe otherwise, he still does not want to accept that this is reality and that his life really has changed.
     Near the end of the novel Vahan finds a part of himself he did not think was there.  He has come a long way from the boy who thought he could float through life, and always be taken care of.  He has come to terms with the situation he is in and understands what he needs to do to survive and just does it. Vahan finally realizes everything, when he tries to inform Selim Bey about what has been happening with Seranoush. When Vahan tells Selim Bey about the abuse Seranoush has endured, Selim Bey’s response is, “Pick your friends carefully and protect them if you can. Leave the rest to their fate” (138).   These words take away Vahan’s last bit of innocence and show him how cruel the world really can be.  When everything in the stable starts feeling strange, and Mrs. Mahari and her son suddenly disappear, Vahan knows he needs to watch out for himself, because he could be next.  “I [Vahan] had taken the precaution of arming myself with a pitchfork and a hammer. If the door opened and the old man stepped inside, I would either run him through with the pitchfork or crack open his withered pink skull with the hammer” (151) In this situation Vahan stays very alert and takes control, he is prepared to do what is necessary to survive.  This shows a drastic change in Vahan, because before he would just have assumed that everything would be okay, because he was Vahan Kenderian, but know he is much more in tuned to reality, and has a plan of action.
     In this novel, Vahan Kenderian shows he has all the traits his father believed he was lacking.  Even though he starts off as a spoiled boy, with a charmed life who has never had to work for anything, he quickly learns what it is like to work for something, when he is forced to work to keep the most important thing to him…his life.  Even though all the odds are stacked against him, Vahan shows honor integrity and self-reliance and he embarks on the journey to freedom from the Turkish soldiers.  It is a belief that people are unable to change who they are, that they are destined to be a certain way based on the cards they have been given.  Everyone is stereotypically categorized by friends, family and acquaintances, who have gone through life with the belief that people are one-dimensional.   However whether it is due to a severe illness, losing a loved one, or genocide, there is always something that can drive someone to become a different person.

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