Sept 27, 2012- Winning isn't an option

Today wasn't too interesting, I started trying to learn Russian, turns out it is NOT anywhere near as easy as I thought it would be, the only think that helps is I already know the alphabet... But other then that it in nothing like french (I already speak french), French just makes sense, as does english, but russian is just...ugh!!!! But whatever, if I even want to feel like a part of his family then this is something I'm going have to do, so why not start now? Alex is really proud of me that I'm trying, but I'm super embarrassed to try to talk in front of him, because I don't want to sound stupid... This girl Ana who I go to school with, who has been trying to be my friend also speaks russian, so I asked her to teach me, but she isn't a very good teacher, plus as everyone knows she smells so freaking bad. Like nothing is worth having to sit close to her. Honestly if you are talking to anyone and you say the word smelly, their first reaction is "Ana?" hahahaha. I'm not trying to be mean, but there is such a thing as deodorant. Well anyway I spent my entire day bemused in thought, so I don't really have much to say about it, besides the fact that Asya was trying to start more shit in last period gym class. At this point this is just pathetic, I don't know how long she is going to continue this, but I don't know why she is so obsessed with me, haha like I know I'm amazing, but this is just getting weird. All she does is talk about me, and try to say things aloud about me to get a reaction out of me, so my new tactic is just going to pretend to be completely oblivious to everything she does. Hopefully soon she will get bored and find a new hobby besides trying to get to me, because it is not going to work. Ugh, I have Jiu Jitsu in an hour, I really don't want to go, I actually really don't like Jiu Jitsu. I wanted to do it 3 years ago, so my mom signed me up, but after I realized i hated it, it was too late, and my mom wouldn't let me quit. I am the only 15 year old (besides my friend Tori who isn't coming this month) with a bunch of people over the age of 20. So no one ever wants to work with me, because I am the only kid there. Plus who the hell wants to get back up and go out at 8:30 at night? Like I already took my bra off, and once that comes off and my baggy tee shirt goes on, that means I am not going back out for the rest of the night. But my mom will freak out if I don't go, I already got twice for skipping Jiu Jitsu to go chill at the mall, which is pretty good considering I skipped at least 3 months of Jiu Jitsu in total hahaha... The funny thing is my mom thinks I'm like satin's child and she only has caught me in like 20 percent of the stuff I've done, I can't even imagine what she would thing if she knew about everything! i think she would just jump off a cliff head first and sent me to a concentration camp! The worst part is I'm completely serious. That's why I've been trying to be super great lately, my plan is to not screw up for a month and gain her trust, then slowly go back to doing what I was doing, but think things through better, because even one little slip up will bring me all the way to square one, and THAT WOULD SUCK! And now that she has the Iphone 5 she wants to track my phone, so instead I set it so it says its tracking me, but instead it tracks her phone, but I didn't think this one through, because now when I go to Jiu Jitsu, shes going to think that I'm still in our house lol...fail...I swear I can't win lol... Akright well that's all, got to go to jiu jitsu.....blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh