Sept 26, 2012- "Does anyone speak English?"

So Alex ended up picking me up from school, as it turns out his phone was broken, but he called me the second he fixed it. Asya started saying shit to me in gym, but I held my head high and told her off. After school Alex and I walked to my house where I gave him his card, with the poem I had written him in it. And he loved it and for once I could honestly tell that he was being sincere. Then my mom called me out "sick" from dance so I could go to Alex's family birthday dinner with him, at him house. Which ruined dance being my perfect excuse to get out of going without seeming like I didn't want to go. Alex practically had to drag me there, kicking and screaming because I really didn't want to go, and for good reason. It was because Alex's family didn't like me, his dad probably would have had a problem with me if I wasn't dating his son, but the fact was I was dating his son, and that would have been fine, but I wasn't white, nor was I russian. And their family was VERY russian. It wasn't only his dad either, his dad's girlfriend has also tried to pay Alex $500 in cash earlier in the week to dump me on the spot. And if all that wasn't bad enough, they all spoke russian non stop, and I didn't know a word in russian, so it wasn't like I just didn't feel like going, I had valid reasons not to go. The second I got there I put on my "mask" (my fake confidence I wear when I feel out of place and awkward). I smiled, shook hands with all the new people I met and was super friendly, but not overly friendly. In no time Alex's relatives and family friends were talking to me, even when everyone was speaking in only russian, I tried not to look like I felt out of place, because I truly wanted them to like me, because they are an extension of Alex who I love so much. And by the time the night was over I was pretty sure I had won over almost everyone except the dad's girlfriend, who I'm pretty sure was making fun of the way I looked at Alex when i was playing the piano. It didn't bother me though, because I didn't make an effort to talk to her, because I don't need nor do I want to be associated with a person like that. And I know her type and no matter how hard I tried, i knew she would never like me, so I decided early on that it just wasn't worth it. But I ended up having a really nice night, and was glad I came...but ugh I really do need to learn some russian... It's nights like these where I remember why I fell so head over heels in love with Alex in the first place, because on nights like these, the real Alex, the one who isn't trying to be something he's not shows through, the sincere and caring Alex comes back. HE is the one I fell in love with, and he is the one I want to be with forever, because in the end of the day, I loved Alex before the nice new clothes, the new haircut, and the fancy new clothes, even after finding out each and every one of his dirty little secrets from the past, it didn't change how I felt about him. well...that's all for tonight, off to go learn some russian... :/