Dec 4, 2013- Couldn't wait any longer

     Today I cracked... I called Alex while I was supposed to be at jiu jistu on my grandma's phone, because honestly I missed him so much.  I saw he is now talking to this bitch Marii who he promised he wouldn't talk to because she said and did a lot of horrible shit to me... But I guess like all things he promises my, there really is no follow through.  Regardless it's whatever and I am just going to be fine with it because I don't want to fight with him.  Hopefully someday he starts putting me first before other girls, but for now its all whatever.  I talked to norman today and told him I love Alex and he was very upset with me because...well...his exact words were "Being broke, LIKING dudes an smoking too much isn't a real problem.  Cheating on you, putting others before you, and putting you down in anyway in unacceptable.  The fact that he expects you to still be there is disgusting, and the fact that you put up with any of it when plenty of other people (me) would want to treat you like a queen is just stupid."  It was kind of nice though that he is looking out for me, and nice to know that in the end of the day Norman really does care about me and will be there for me.