Dec 4, 2013- Couldn't wait any longer

     Today I cracked... I called Alex while I was supposed to be at jiu jistu on my grandma's phone, because honestly I missed him so much.  I saw he is now talking to this bitch Marii who he promised he wouldn't talk to because she said and did a lot of horrible shit to me... But I guess like all things he promises my, there really is no follow through.  Regardless it's whatever and I am just going to be fine with it because I don't want to fight with him.  Hopefully someday he starts putting me first before other girls, but for now its all whatever.  I talked to norman today and told him I love Alex and he was very upset with me because...well...his exact words were "Being broke, LIKING dudes an smoking too much isn't a real problem.  Cheating on you, putting others before you, and putting you down in anyway in unacceptable.  The fact that he expects you to still be there is disgusting, and the fact that you put up with any of it when plenty of other people (me) would want to treat you like a queen is just stupid."  It was kind of nice though that he is looking out for me, and nice to know that in the end of the day Norman really does care about me and will be there for me.

Dec 3, 2013- A blast from the past and a trip to the future

     Today was strange... I went to text Alex on my texting app this morning and then thought about it and realized I can't be the one distracting him from his school work, so I deleted what I had typed and put my phone away.

     Later, my friend Ana was talked to this guy Norman... Since you don't know who Norman is I will just give you a quick summary.  He was this dude I met through this guy Blue I was dating, and I ended up sleeping with Norman and he was my first.  Also, we would always do this thing where we would go back and forth saying "Omg just admit you like me, everyone knows you do!" and neither of us would ever admit it.  So today he texted me and mid conversation I used that line jokingly, but I guess you can't tell through text. Regardless his response was "Yeah I always have, and its never been a secret."  Then he started asking me to give him a chance, like WTF!?  

     After school I went to my second day of my new job, and surprising it wasn't as bad as the first day.  The place is super high tech, and I feel like I can't keep up, it's like i'm caught in the wrong century. Luckily today I finally somewhat knew what I was doing, and I worked with this guy Shant that used to go to my school but graduated and is now in college.  I thought he was going to be a complete asshole but he actually ended up being super nice, and at the end of the night he saved my butt.  I was supposed to mop the floors, and I have never mopped anything in my life, and lets just say it was not a pretty sight I looked like a drunk bitch trying to wrestle Shamoo.  Finally Shant came over and helped me out.  Seta my boss also said if I think of an idea for a seasonal latte then they will sell it!  

Dec 2, 2013- "I been to hell and back, I can show you vouchers"

Well today was the first day of basketball tryouts, and lets just say "I been to hell and back, I can show you vouchers." I am literally drenched in sweat (yes I'm aware hot attractive that sounds...haha not). I can't even move and to think I have jiu jitsu in an hour, oh god, I can't. Anyway I am also not allowed to talk to Alex until I start getting strait A's and as his dad says "Alex stoop doing marihuana (in very Russian accent)." Which sucks, but at least I can see him for the holidays. The reason I'm telling you this is because I think I am going to start blogging every night so if he wants to see what is going on in my life all he has to do is check out my blog.