Feb 3, 2013- Ill tell you my dirty little secret

     Last night despite the conclusion I came to, I decided to let Agustin be my date to this party I was going to.  I ended up going to the party with Agustin, his friend Donald, and my friend Angelica.  It took us a bunch of time to get there because we couldn't find it, but Agustin stayed next to me making sure I was warm the entire time. After we got to the party it was so crowded seemed like it would be impossible to stay with anyone, and the worst part was everyone was speaking Spanish  which was fine for Agustin...but not at all for the rest of us.  We ended up loosing Angie and Donald, but Agustin made sure to take care of me the entire time, and made sure I was with him and then I felt comfortable and that he didn't loose me.  It was kind of nice to have someone who took such good care of me for once, even though Agustin isn't the type to care enough to do that, finally I remembered why I fell for him in the first place, we ended up kissing.  But for some reason as much as I was happy and I wanted to let this happen, I kept thinking back to Alex.  By the time the party ended I was drunk and high enough to send Alex a text of how much I truly miss him and want to see him tomorrow morning cuz I dont want to be without him anymore.  His response was "I wanna go to the Gym first." With Eli I'm guessing...by the time I got the text I wasn't even phased by it, because by this point I kind of already knew that was what was coming... I truly hope Alex never finds out about what happened with Agustin, because that would ruin our relationship...actually who know he might not even care, I mean he doesn't really seem to care much about me anyway, I don't see why he doesn't just end it.